Pics Again

Here are a few recent pics. Oh, and nothing new with Josh. Still has diarrhea a bit, so I'm going to give it a couple more days and then I'm thinking about starting him on the prevacid again because I don't think he would still have diahrrea after 9 days of being off of it. Argh. It's all so frustrating...

Sam found a pen...

I just loved this picture of my beautiful boy.

The boys watching a Brainy Baby video.

Hahahaha....this one is just funny. I'm not sure what he was scared of.

This Weekend...

...was great! Dave and I actually got to go on a date on Saturday (with the baby of course...)! Thanks again so much to Christa for watching Sam! What we thought would only be about a 5-6 hour babysitting job (we were just planning on driving to Prescott Valley and seeing a movie), turned out to be an all day thing. We did see a movie, but we ended up thinking of all these other things that we had to get done while we were there. That's the thing about living so far away from town. When you're there, you have to take advantage of it and get everything done you can.

Anyway, we saw Wolverine, which I absolutely loved and it made me want to watch the first and second X-Men movies when we got home. So we had a good time out, and as he always is, Joshua was great in the movie.

Yesterday, Mother's Day, was good, but not really any different than any other day. I wanted a laptop, but we want to wait until we find the perfect deal, so instead Dave (well...I guess it would really be from Josh and Sam) got me 2 movies I love: P.S. I Love You and 27 Dresses. He also got me a really funny Michael Scott card that plays sound of him talking about children. Except it's kind of annoying now that I have it memorized, because Sam opens it plays it all the time.

On Friday night Dave took Sam to the Father and Sons, though they didn't camp over night. It's just too difficult and not worth it for Dave to camp with Sam at this age because of how difficult he can be. But they had a lot of fun! And I got to hang out with just me and Josh. You know what I did? I watched Twilight with the comentary by Catherine, Kristen, and Rob (yeah....I know them so well that I refer to them only by their first names, haha). Yeah, don't make fun. I usually would never sit through a movie while listening to a boring comentary, but the the Twilight one is actually pretty funny...actually, pretty hillarious. There were parts where I was laughing out loud by myself. It was just funny to hear them all talking about stuff and getting a feel of the experience they had making the movie. And Rob Pattinson is actually pretty darn funny. He kept making fun on himself as Edward and I got a kick out of it. Anywho....

So Joshua hasn't changed much. He still has diarrhea, though not as bad as before, so I don't know if it was actually the Prevacid causing it or not, since it's now been 6 days since he's been off of it. It's so hard to say. I'm still not sure whether I made the right decision or not. He had one really good eating session at church yesterday, where he ate for about 10 minutes on each side, like a normal baby, and I thought that would be a positive turn, but it was only a one-time thing. I'm still not sure what to do. He has an appointment on June 11 with the G.I. doctor (I'm going to have them put us on the cancellation list though) so we'll see how that goes.

That's it for now!

Sam's First Sentence

So yesterday at church I started to smell something gross - something that smelled just like Sam when he's poopy - and I leaned over to him sitting next to me, and whispered, "Did you poo?" Well, usually he doesn't answewr me more than a "no," or somtimes not at all. This time he looked up at me with his beautiful big blue eyes and big pouty lips, and in his sweet sweet voice replied, "No, I didn't poopoo. I just farted." Haha...it was pretty funny....

Picture Post

Last months combined YW/YM activity...Human Foosball:



Cutest Boy!


Taking the boys out for a walk...and Josh cried the WHOLE time. He's definitely not like his big brother. Sam loved car rides and walks.

Dave and Sam on the new porch swing Dave got me!


Two naked boys...

I just had to take a picture of Sam in the snazzy tie Will-Will gave him...

And finally...asleep. I had to take a picture to document it, because I knew if I didn't, Dave wouldn't believe me that he was actually asleep in his swing, it being such a rare occasion and all...

Joshua's Reflux

Well, I thought I'd give an update on my Joshie (Dave hates when I call him that, by the way. He thinks it's too feminine. He would rather call him "Shua"...as in, the end of his name...yeah, I don't know how it came about either.). First off, I never got to tell my fun story about the last straw I had with his and Sam's pediatrician. So, the day I had Joshua's follow-up appointment, I was running extremely behind and rushed to get both me and the boys out the door and by the time I was driving into Prescott it was 3:45 on the dot - the time of my appointment. Well, the dr. office is only like 2 minutes from the spot I was at, so I decided to be nice and call them to let them know I was still on my way. Well, when I did, they told me there was no way they'd see me and that I'd have to reschedule...even though I was literally only going to be 2 minutes late!! I apologized and told her I was running behind, could they please give me a break because I drove an hour and a half JUST for this appointment...with two screaming kids (yeah...Joshua HATES being in the car), and Dr. Green didn't even care. He had his rounds to do at the hospital and didn't want to wait. He knows my story and that I live out of town, and he didn't even care. So after arguing with her about it, I said, "Fine, I'll just turn back around and drive an hour and a half home!" and then I hung up. And that's exactly what I did...after I pulled over and nursed Joshua, of course. I was so incredibly LIVID. That was the biggest wasted 3 hours of my life. And I had to listen to two upset, mad kids the whole way. I don't blame them for crying the whole time.

Anyway, I just couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that a dr. would care about his patients that little. That was the last straw for me and it totally wiped out my wishy-washiness of switching doctors. I decided then that, even if he did call back and asked me to reschedule (which he never did!!), I wouldn't. I refuse to ever take my kids there again.

So, after listening to people's opinions, we switched to Dr. Sipes. I took Josh to her and I absolutely LOVE her! She was so good with him and you could tell she really cared. I also didn't feel stupid for asking questions or trying to get more information about things, unlike Dr. Green, who would always make me feel like an idiot for wanting to know things. I'm sorry I want to know what's going on with my child...

Anyway, she was great and her office was nice and clean and bright (SO unlike Dr. Green's) and her staff is great. So about the medicine...he was on Zantac about a week and a half and it helped a LITTLE bit. It helped so he wasn't throwing and spitting up all the time, but that's all it helped. His food would still come up, just not all the way (he'd swallow it) and he would still hiccup and burp all the time, still couldn't eat well, etc. So Dr. Sipes put him on Prevacid, which I have heard works better most of the time anyway. This has started to work, but unfortunately it's giving him REALLY bad diarrhea! I looked it up and it is a side effect...but only in 3% of people!! Of course, he has to be in that 3%... And it's not something I just want to deal with because he's miserable because of it and has constant diaper rash. So unfortunately, I have to take him off of it.

So I don't know what we will do. I'm tired of it though, and I'm sure he is too. I wish we could find something that worked. I might just have to put him back on the Zantac, because a little help is better than none at all. He also has a referral in to see a G.I. specialist at Phoenix Children's, but that probably won't be for a while since the wait is so long. I guess I'll keep you updated...

My Latest Downfall Rant

Well, it's been a while. I've been so busy (not with anything exciting...just with Motherhood), and when I do get a moment here or there (which isn't often lately), there are other things I need to do. Lately I have been struggling, not with anything really going on in my life, but within myself. It's hard not to get wrapped up in the emotions and feelings that just come naturally, and replace them with positive, selfless feelings. It's hard for me not to get jealous sometimes that Dave has the freedom to come and go as he pleases...even just that he can run out quickly and get something he needs, go on a joy-ride with a friend, or even just simply take a shower whenever he wants! I never realized before how much something that simple could mean! I feel like I am bound down by my children (it doesn't help that we happen to have two of the most needy kids in the world) and never have time to even get ready. I can't remember the last time I showered and got ready for the day...to MY specifications. Even when I can, I'm always rushed so I can get the crying baby fed and then get out of the house to get to wherever it is I need to go. So even when I do "get ready," I feel so yucky. It's hard not to feel bad about yourself when you look and feel YUCKY every day. It's sad when I look at a simple 10 minute trip to the grocery store by myself as one of the most liberating things! And that I would fight anyone who tried to go for me. :) (Dave offered to go while he was out last night and I almost freaked out...even though he was trying to be nice). Anyway, I just need to keep reminding myself that I haven't lost who I am in this process, because that is who and what I am - a mother. And I honestly wouldn't want to be or do anything else in life! All the things I want to do for myself can be put on the backburner because being a mom is the number one priority. That's why I am on this earth and I feel so blessed and love my children so much! I just wish that when I was feeling underappreciated and feelings of self pitty and that I need a break, I could push a button that would put everything back into prespective for me and help me think the way I am supposed to think!

"For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the Fall of Adam, and will be forever and ever, unless he...becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father."
-Mosiah 3:19

"...When ye are in the service of your fellow beings, ye are only in the service of your God."
-Mosiah 2:17

I loved one of the talks at conference (for the life of me, I can't remember by whom) that talked about how when we put ourselves first, and indulge our desires, we are sinning, and how we need to be putting others (like our spouse, children, etc.) first. That was just the jist...it was a beautiful talk and I was grateful I heard it because of how much I need to be reminded of that! I just pray that the Lord will be understanding when I have my selfish moments and that he can help me to replace those thoughts with ones of a selfless nature!